to reach that place...

I feel like I am balancing on a boat, the wrong step would send me tipping into the water...




But Father, thank You so much.

In the past seven or so months, I've managed to watch a slew of anime


Ghost Hound (It's not bad... I liked the opening song. And it's Production I.G!!)

Ergo Proxy (Amazing. (And Pino is the cutest anime character ever. ever.))

Yojouhan Shinwa Taikei (the ending theme is the killer!! It is one of the best songs I've heard recently. And the anime itself is really really good. It's awesome.)

xxxHolic (I like the theme... Watanuki is hilarious. I wanna date someone like Doumeki.)

Zombie Loan ("If that's called living, even a zombie can do it!" <--)

Pale Cocoon (Really nice... by the creator of Time of Eve. I love his graphic style and view. He really rocks.)

Shangri La (It was quite captivating, liked it. And Nakata Joji never fails (LOL)...)

Kino's Journey (The episode that gave me the strongest impression was the one with the three men working on a railway track to nowhere)

Ghost in the Shell (The two movies... actually I watched the first one some years back. I watched it again and really loved it this time. The second one (Innocence) is really good too! Even more stunning than the first, I thought)

Vampire Hunter D "Bloodlust" ("Return the girl." "I snatched her because I wanted her. You do that too." It sounds even more awesome in Japanese.「娘を返してもらう」「私は欲しいから奪った。お前もそうしよう」）




And some I never got to finish... doesn't mean they're not good though, it's just a habit of mine...

Arakawa Under the Bridge (pretty interesting. I kinda liked Nino. I kinda understand Nino. I don't know.)

Durarara! (pretty interesting too. The opening song was great.)

Uragiri wa Boku no Namae wo Shitteiru (Ok, I kind of didn't get hooked on for this one... not my type)

East of Eden (I watched only one episode - it was pretty interesting.)

House of Five Leaves (pretty nice... the art style is also really unique)

Boogiepop Phantom (not bad... a little dark)

Texhnolyze (I couldn't get head or tail of it... might continue since it's intriguing)

Cromatie High School (I was suffering immensely from the end of Gintama's last season... I thought I found a cure in this but sadly no... Gintama come back!!)

Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann (Another one in the search for a cure... failed again)

Pandora Hearts (So-so.... I guess... not too boring and not too exciting)

Nyan Koi (Tama is so cute!! Lol. But, the show's essentially a harem and that's not my thing.)




And here are some I watched ages ago and never completed:

Time of Eve (I really really liked it. I might watch the whole thing some time.)

Gankutsuou - The Count of Monte Cristo (I really liked the art style... the Count is not bad.)

Gantz (it was really bizarre)

Cluster Edge (I really liked Agate. I wanted to borrow a little of his positive energy, back then... even a little. Who was Agate?)

Higurashii ga Naku Koro Ni Kai (So what is it, actually?)

Moyashimon (Cute bacteria)

Cowboy Bebop (This one... I just never ever finished... I wonder if I will. It's really good, of course. The opening song is classic.)

Amatsuki (I was quite interested in it back when it came out... then I stopped following for some reason.)

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei (Not bad... but stopped watching.)





Those that are still on-going:

Keroro Gunsou (Seriously, they keep me sane. I love Keroro Gunsou! Long live Keroro Gunsou.)

Bleach (Ok, I think Bleach just got interesting again... right? But I really have to say that I can't stand the opening 'explanation' and 'recap' part that always, unfailingly, takes up almost half the episode. ANYWAY, Aizen saves the show.)




Those that I am following this season:

Nurarihyon no Mago (seems pretty popular, but I am not that crazy over it.. not bad though)

Densetsu no Yuusha no Densetsu (is pretty good, but it gets a little... heart-tugging sometimes (for me) and I don't know if I want my heart to be tugged at so much...)

Togainu no Chi (this is actually the one I am most excited about every week. Rin! And... Who is Nano? What is Nano??)

Kuragehime (not bad... keeps you laughing... and the opening and ending themes are very nice)

Star Driver (it's very hyped... but not my type. I wanna say, "well, if it rocks your boat...")

MM! (Ok... it's pretty funny all things considered... about a hentai masochistic guy. Harem is not my thing)

Tegami Bachi Reverse (Niche is so cute!!)

Shiki (It's not bad. Didn't like it at first because I thought it's another one of those vampire stories that are really getting stale... but it got better.)

Ikamusume (here and there... kinda stopped... didn't think it's very funny or interesting.)

I've been feeling nostalgic these two days... I don't know why.



Maybe because I fell sick?


Did the feeling of fever trigger some switch in my brain?



Or is it the smell in the air? Or the fact that because I was sick, I wore long pants and a cardigan to keep warm in the house...


Or maybe because it's the rainy season







I really don't know why...







I tried to think, what is it that I feel nostalgic about....






My past? The school days? College? Junior college? Secondary school? Even earlier?


Or Europe? Japan? America?



Or my past life?










What happened?






The television dramas that I watched before?



The life I led, the people I knew?



What is it...
















Ah, but I wish... when all this is over... When all is well...

I wish to go out again... watch a movie, have tea and cakes with a friend... go shopping for nice dresses... feel the sun on my back...